Hi Lola, it sounds like you’ve made fantastic progress! I have only just joined this support group myself and I feel much of the things that are being talked about. The guilt feelings, the embarrassment. That ‘all or nothing’ approach is a theme with everything I do (and it can be used for really positive stuff). I’m like u in that I don’t drink every day however when I do (which is usually every weekend) I start and find it hard to stop. Maybe I do it to relieve boredom or maybe it’s just habit. I think I just do it to help me relax as I’m uptight and demand a lot from myself (I think I make myself pay penance for my sins – I know that sounds weird). I don’t want to be the drunk girl socially anymore. I want be me. Even if that means I’m quiet and boring. Lola, please keep coming back to let us know how you are doing. It would be great to see and learn from you. I’m looking forward to saying I’ve been two and half months sober myself and am having trouble seeing it with all the social events coming up.