I did see a couple of messages from my shoe…I tried to open them but they would not come open..im not ignoring.

day 8. still sober…believe me it has been on my mind. But, I have been staying busy, staying in contact with my sponsor. I have been praying but not on my knees like I should. I am having a hard time with that and Im not sure why. I grew up praying, on my knees…and yes my sponsor says, its a form of surrender should be done everyday. I give…[Read more]

Good morning…day four…Since 11/11/17. One day at a time…but my hurdle will be tomorrow. Wednesdays are usually my tough day..one day at a time. I keep thinking about the serenity prayer and that first principal of the 12 steps.

This is day three. tried posting yesterday morning but the site wouldnt accept the post. Attended a local AA meeting again last night and took a white marble. Getting thru yesterday felt really good. Getting up today thanking God for another morning of no hang over, no head ache, not feeling ashamed or confused as to what I did or didnt do that…[Read more]

I went to my first meeting today. I was terrified and crying. But even with being afraid, ashamed, and totally uncomfortable, I feel better. I feel like there is some hope for me. Im going back this evening and I just pray i can get thru this whole day. It felt good to just talk to people who are dealing with, and have gone thru the same thing.