Thank you for your perspective. You gave me a lot to think about.

I suffered a different type of abuse.. it was more of mental and physical abuse. my mother would have never support alcohol or drug abuse however here we are. My sister is a recovered drug a user and I could not be more proud. I always felt that I was alright up until recently. I am definitely drinking more than what is typical for your average adult. I have a marriage that is not great and a job that requires more than any person can deal with. I’m going on 7 years on my job. I cannot deal with my past issues and current issues. I’m dealin with alcohol and that is not alright. I need support

J, you’ve come to a great place for support, and I pray that you will stick around and get it. The other thing is to ask God to help. Seek him with your whole heart, and you will find Him

For I know the plans I have for you”  — this is the Lord ’s declaration — “plans for your well-being, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. You will call to me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:11‭-‬13 CSB
https://bible.com/bible/1713/jer.29.11-13.CSB

He will help, and so will everyone that’s here, we have all been there